What if we could influence time? What if we could change time? What if we share it? Sometimes it feels like time is bending or has flipped horizontally.
The past feels like the present. The future feels like the past. Or even the past feels like the future. This is what trauma does. We get triggered. Feel the past as if it is happening right now. And, try to get out of the painful moment by moving quickly into the future. And, then try to control it all from happening again, as it already begins to…
Spinning.
But, what if we look at time from our grandparents perspective, as if our past also includes our grandparents’ past? So then, are we living their future, as their grandchildren, in this moment? If we change or transform, in the present - does it influence them, their past or their legacy? If we experienced from our parents what our parents experienced from their parents, then wouldn’t we all be contributing to a tapestry of threads affirming and reaffirming subtle beliefs or truths to live by, even in the opposition of such beliefs and truths? Then, wouldn’t such threads in our lineage have a chance to change when we choose a new path, something different, something new? Are we changing their future or their past? Or our own? Or all of the above, all at once?
Slowing by opposing gravitational pulls.
Just as trauma spirals us backwards, the hope of intergenerational transformation spirals us forward. Our joy includes our pain, and our pain can include our joy. So in the horizontal spirals of time, our joy becomes the healing to generations before us and to those to come - a shared moment of time that honors all we have been, all we are and all we will be.
Settling home.